When Fibromyalgia Takes Control

When I am under an immense amount of stress, be it physical, mental or emotional my Fibromyalgia symptoms intensify. When the weather is brutal cold my Fibromyalgia symptoms intensify. Sometimes for no apparent reason my Fibromalgia symptoms intensify.

In the past few weeks, I have felt pain and exhaustion that I have not felt in several years. I wake up, and feel like I never slept. No, I feel worse in the morning than I did when I went to bed. The pain throughout my entire body is so deep that I can’t find comfort anywhere. My mood is down. My patience is shot. My outlook on life is not what it should be. I am not a fun person to be around, and I don’t even like being around myself when this happens. If I could get up and walk away from myself, I would.

When Fibromyalgia takes control, it takes everything I have to make it through the day. I can only do the bare minimum. It takes everything in my being to get up in the morning and go to work. You can forget being any help or support to my family when I get home from work. They are lucky to get frozen pizza for dinner on a bad day. Laundry, cleaning, writing and playing are not an option. Relaxing isn’t even on the table because that is how much it hurts and how exhausted I am.

Don’t get me wrong, there are times when I can fight it and push the pain and exhaustion away, but it’s been a long time since I’ve been able to fight back. When, Fibromyalgia takes control, I’d rather be somewhere else – somewhere far away from where I am now, far away from me.

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